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[24 Jul 2008|11:26pm] |
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I don't know what has come over me this summer!!! This was potentially the worst summer in the history of all summers. Nothing worked out like i wanted it to. My friends and i never had our random slumber parties at places strung across Lewisport; Not even the laundromat. Lindsey didn't get to come over at all, and Cory got stuck in Louisville with no ride here to see us. I find out that the car budget for my sixteenth birthday is going to be around $1200, and I'm scared to death to get a car that breaks down all the time like Bethany's does, because I always leave my cell phone at home. The parts of our house (including my room) that we were building on to our house have been abandoned by some guy named John DICKson, who we are now suing. I won't get my new room until winter, minimum..and not having a personal space in this tiny house is driving me mad. My new neighbors are annoying as heck.. I suck at dealing with kids. I haven't gone to holiday world,and I'm totally broke. That's my summer in a nutshell. But back to the first sentence: I don't know what has come over me this summer!!! All of this crap has happened, yet this peace has come over me. I know a huge part of it is going back to church and leaving all my grudges behind, then getting right with god. but there were also so many other decisions I've made, that have just eased my mind more than ever. I just feel......mellow. I feel that I could just leave this place, and leave everything behind and start a new life. I could leave the extrovert behind and meet so many strangers. I want to go...I want to prove myself. to myself. I don't have to conform, or care about all those stupid categories that people will place me in. I just feel.....free. and it's making me want to leave this place and go out on my own, all alone to meet new people by myself; just to see if I could do it. I know I can do it. I hate being shy, and that will always be a part of who I am....but I'm never going to let it get in the way of the point I want to come across about my opinion. because my opinion is important. I just feel so strongly that the rest of this year, no matter how screwed up it has begun to pan out, could be a revelation of good for me. All I've got to work on is my negativity, because it's gotten so bad that it even annoys me! but hopefully with some new wisdom, and expirience it will fade. I feel like I've grown up so much, and I can't wait to show it to whoever sees. I'm me, just......amplified.
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[22 Jul 2008|12:01am] |
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How come it's so hard for me to get it together?
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[18 Jul 2008|01:11am] |
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Okay, so I really want to just sit down and write a meaningful post. and after this, I'm going to sit in my tree. I don't feel like myself lately. it's like, my negativity is finally so horrible that it's even annoying me. But I don't know how to change it. Here I am, feeling all stupid, needing to talk to somebody. who knows who... about who knows what. and my brain just doesn't process things right anymore...
...whatever.
Ryan's now in the pit. So is Jake Miller O_O
anyways, gotta go to that trusty tree.
anybody wanna have a nice heart-to-heart around a bon fire with me?
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[17 Jul 2008|03:51pm] |
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Am I overreacting about Ryan not being in band this year? I mean, he did say that he's probably gonna be in it next year. and I can tell that he's trying to put family first. I understand all of that. So, why am I freaking out so much. I stayed up 'til way past 4:30 thinking about what it's gonna be like without him. it's almost like, for me he's moving away. because I rarely get to see him outside of band. now I'm section leader, and I can't do it alone. sectionals is gonna be me, Jakob Hall, and Parker. Jakob's gonna try to rape me....and Parker's been hanging out with Ethan so much, I'm scared of how he'll turn out. I just really miss Ryan. I miss him already.
and now I'm wondering why I'm even in band anymore.
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| I'd just like to point out how much I love fastball. haven't heard them in forever. |
[04 Jul 2008|01:15am] |
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Fastball, which way to the top-
Where did you leave your baby
Bleeding in her bed
Her ghost has come to stay
Oh, you can try, you can't chase her away
In the bar we sit like blackbirds
With our broken wings
Like clocks without their springs
Just like time doesn't mean anything
Won't you tell me
Which way to the top?
You know that I can't stay
Down here
We used to ride around in a broken down old car
But now I'm changing trains
Oh, and I'll hit all the notes in between
Mom and Dad are fast asleep now
But I'll be wide awake
A surfer in the break
Oh, just waiting for the perfect wave
And a place in the shade
Won't you tell me
Which way to the top?
You know that I can't stay
Down here
You better get it now while
The getting's good
Get it now while it's happening
You better get it now while
The getting's good
Get it now while it's happening
Won't you tell me
Which way to the top?
You know that I can't stay
Down here
Won't you tell me
Which way to the top?
You know that I can't stay
Down here
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[30 Jun 2008|12:16am] |
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dear self,
you get yourself into these situations. you unknowingly fall into the trap, using your own words while doing it. STOP, before it happens again. this is the last time this is happening, and after that...well. it's not your problem.
-Liv
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[28 Jun 2008|03:33pm] |
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hmmmm. I don't really want to write about what happened in Myrtle Beach in here, because it would take entirely too long. All I know is that it was an emotional roller coaster for all of us. We were stretched spiritually beyond belief, but it was all so worth it. God is really dealing with me.
and, the whole being stranded outside of Knoxville thing. was so hilarious. It was truly a unique experience
:DDD
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[21 Jun 2008|10:27am] |
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Myrtle Beach with the youth. I just found out I was going two days ago, and I'm really unprepared. I feel like there's a lot I need to be doing...
AND, I have like NO "appropriate" shorts. I guess I'll have to go to Wal*mart and spend MY money on shorts that I will never wear again after this trip.
-_-
but hey...on the bright side, I'm going. yessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss :D
and now Lacie's coming, so it's gonna be fun.
Plus, the pool in our hotel is AMAZING!
eek! stress?
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[16 Jun 2008|09:35pm] |
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That's it, I'm moving to Spotsville.
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[13 Jun 2008|09:45pm] |
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So, I'm in Ohio. And I'm really bored.
nothing much else to say...
Lacie's dad thinks I'm a failure because I wanna work in the fashion industry :D
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[11 Jun 2008|02:20pm] |
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So, I had the longest nightmare last night. It was band camp 2008. I don't know why I'm so stressed out about it, but it started out me forgetting like, everything. I didn't know any of the music, I forgot to wear tennis shoes (wtf?) and nobody had sunscreen. lol, that would be HORRIBLE. I don't know why I'm so nervous, exactly. but I just want us to do so much better than last year. idk, maybe it's that I care too much? ahhhh, but I can't stop thinking about it.
it's so dumb.
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[09 Jun 2008|02:22pm] |
1. Name:
2. Birthday:
3. Place of residence:
4. What makes you happy:
5. What are you listening to now/have listened to last:
6. Do you read my LJ:
7. If you do, what is particularly good/bad about it:
8. An interesting fact about you:
9. Are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
10. Favorite place to be:
11. Favorite lyric:
12. Best time of the year:
13: Post the most recent picture of yourself:
RECOMMEND
1. A film:
2. A book:
3. A band, a song and an album:
PLUS
1. One thing you like about me:
2. Two things you like about yourself:
3. Put this in your LJ so i can tell you what I think of you
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| Kill me quick. |
[04 Jun 2008|10:22pm] |
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I'm not much of a go-getter, am I? I guess I could be more of a go-and-waiter, or a go-to-sleeper...lmao. I used to be so determined to get places in life, and to always get what I want. Now, don't get me wrong. I'm an extremely DEMANDING person. I'll whine, cry and scream until I get exactly what I want, or I'll find one way to get it. But I'm sick of taking the easy route about things. I'm so lazy about everything, all the time. I wanna be a go-getter :DThis summer stinks.
I'm such a pessimist..
no heritage festival for me. I'd rather be a hermit than roam the streets of Lewisport with most of the people who inhabit this town
-_-
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[03 Jun 2008|12:47am] |
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without friends...
I hate that.
I want to be close to my friends again, more than ever. things are horrible, mannnn.
taken care of? yes, we're healing.
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| ..been posting too much nonsense. |
[01 Jun 2008|01:25am] |
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"or maybe there really is no set definition of a person, maybe we're all just made up of the perceptions we give other people and ourselves, maybe that and our thoughts are what make us up"
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| you turned on your radio, but your radio turned me on... |
[27 May 2008|08:14pm] |
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SUMMER!!!! |
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washington social club <3 |
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( CLICK FOR PICTURES :] )
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| What I used to look like......wow. |
[26 May 2008|12:48am] |
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this took forever! (image heavy)
( my hair throughout the years )
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| I made myself post. |
[23 May 2008|05:06pm] |
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So, school's out. That's great news. It hasn't really sunk in yet, that I don't have to worry about grades and stuff for a couple months. I'm pretty psyched about just chilling this summer. Anyway, The appraiser guy called today and appraised our crappy double wide for $40,000, which was surprisingly high. This way, we'll have more money to do stuff with it, y'know? It's so weird, building out..but as long as I get my own room this summer AND a car later on, I'm totally content.
Graduation is tomorrow. Bethany, along with a lot of other great friends are leaving. I'll see Bethany still, everyday so I'm not sad about that. Just happy for her. I am sad about having to ride the bus until APRIL next year, however. O_______O
annnnnnnnnnnd....I just watched the senior anthology, which took forever. It made me realize how bad people's accents are here. lmao.
I don't have to babysit tonight, for a change. but we can't really go anywhere. we might do a movie night. hmmmmm. NATIONAL TREASURE TWO!!!!!!!!!!
Riley <3
I've got a lot of my mind. I've been thinking in...short. choppy. sentences lately. Just, trying to keep it together. luckily, things should be winding down and getting a tad less hectic soon. Can't wait for that, mayynee.
Peace.
p.s. I PASSED ENGLISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thank god, no more Mrs. Byard.
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| we are both dying. |
[08 May 2008|09:42pm] |
Hmmm. back from florida so soon.. It feels weird.
I wanna go back, only. by myself. I kind of just wanna go somewhere alone, because here I never get the time to collect my thoughts and really see who I am, and who I want to be.
It's hard to grow in a small town like this. Sometimes it gets hard to breathe.
school is almost out, thank the lord. Summer is coming, it'll get warmer. I can finally relax for once.
and start having money again.
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